and the page turns.

My father use to always say " No goodbyes, I'll be seeing ya" From that time on I have had a difficult time with goodbyes. Every person that crosses our path somehow becomes a part of us, as if our character was nothing more than a sponge. It wasn't so much with death as death was a closure but more it had to do with the way some people just walk out of your life. No goodbyes, no I'll be see'n ya , they just disappear as if that time never existed.

In all reality everyone puts a different spin on the chapters of life. I didn't realize how much interpretation altered the experience for each and everyone of us. I think that unknown that we succumb to is void when the path we walk is laden with truth. There are times in my life where I still don't completely comprehend the lesson. Are we to experience heartache, pain, as well as the love and peace? Maybe when all the chapters are said and done our place on this earth is over. For me it is like a massive headache , the more think the more my head hurts.

I have desperately tried to put all of life and the experiences into perspective to no avail. My guardian angel must have been working overtime.


Awakened a child of ten,
to see the world from within,
gazing out I could see
reality and a dream.

From there a child to a teen,
I stood before the world
and bared all that was
truly a part of me.

I cried down the aisle,
erasing all my hope
and leaving me with
a smile.

I was lost and lonely,
until I found you
and my life changed
forever and to the darkness
I said adieu.

You decided there would be
and end, without ever saying
goodbye my friend.

Now the pages of life turn,
but your vision inside me burns,
that is how it goes,
I know your love still grows.

~

I feel trapped in two webs,

of dreams of happiness and the pain of reality.

 

 

 

One letter would have changed my world

and the direction of the path.

 

DEAN MARTIN - I've Got My Love to Keep Me Warm (1959)

Smiles!

2015

Struggles,
haunting,
mixed desire,
troubled heart,
soul on fire.

Undeniable,
heavens blue,
faded sun shine,
stars adieu.

Reality writes the next chapter.

~

 

 

Fear of the unknown is wasted energy.

 

~

The final chapter is the same of all of us,

only the place and time change.

 

~

Embrace the moment,

for that is our only guarantee.

 

~

It is true tomorrow may never come,

therefore I acknowledge my love as the powerful magic that it is.

 

~

For those who believe,

the pages turn.

 

 

 

 

Update

It is those who crisscross our path over and over that amaze me. They seem to give an otherwise meaningless journey reason. For those who stand by me throughout this journey with many hills and bends ...thank you.

Forever

                                                  



The truth is love begins...
                                        
There is no replacing,
I couldn't even try.
You took my heart
and left a void inside.

Tucked away like a
bear on a winter day,
hiding from reality
of the dreams I cannot
fight.

My heart was given
away and you have
held it since that
very first day.

Poetry... the documentaion of an empty heart.

I danced in the heavens
and I fell from high,
the experiences of life
we cannot deny.

I sang and I laughed,
I most certainly cried,
I felt my heart live
and I felt my heart die.

I have loved and been loved

As I looked back in kind of a review mode, I saw not only my experiences and accomplishments but lessons of life. I felt myself placed upon the clouds in a higher plateau that seem to be surreal and also the slide backward that reality can bring. I realize that it really is chapters of ones life. I have touched with my senses and explored worlds that had not even existed in my own mind. It was when I tried to retain in a rigid box all that is that missed the greatest lesson. No matter where our travels take us, no matter the end of the story, we have touched and been touched by many. In a odd way the past is just that and does not have the weight it once did. The future does not come with fear. I see that life is a gift and amazing and wonderful gift that without notice can be taken away. Therefore I will spend the rest of my days in celebration. I have loved, I have been loved...

It's not always black and white...

My Soul on canvas, "Pictorial Prose": Another Version of life is not always black and wh...: This is one of my favorite sketches of Audrey's, Nothing is ever simple, so comes into play the colors of life. I find the picture to...

Dreaming of warm weather and sunny beaches...

Let me see where are we. I will be at the red hats in WV on May 10th for a informal tea presentation of herbs. I will also be at Penn state for ladies day and and at the local waynesburg civic club.
The farmers market is starting up and looking forward to seeing everyone. I feel more than a year older... lol

December 8 th The Armory in Waynesburg PA

I will be the armory in waynesburg on the 8 th of December. If you need something special made up best to call in advance.

Love should never hurt... never.

Festival October 20-21 Lardin House Inn

The Lardin House Inn, October 20 21 2012

We are set to have a great event at " the lardin house inn, in Masontown PA. Right of off route 21 in Fayette County. The festival plans to showcase local talent and raise funds for the DVSSP - Domestic Violence Services of South Western PA. Enjoy a day of shopping, relaxation, beautiful scenery as well as a car show and other fun festivities. If you  have yet to take in the sites and scenery of south western Pa, October is the month to really explore the heart soul of Fayette and Greene and Washington County. Make the Lardin house inn your last stop on a tour of the hills of PA.

There are a few spaces available for vendors, artist and crafters. For an application email Rachel@autumnsboutique.com.

Eminent Domain - Destruction of the "American Dream"

and so I do.

Today I thought of you.

There was something different, I have heard it all before. "Time heals "and" life goes on and" there is hope over each and every hill" I never really understood the stepping stones of life. I tried to understand the woes of the people passing by and I guess I never really will except for the fact we all will have our time.
Today I thought of you and many things rang true and yes I was in denial, I wanted my skies to always be blue. But this day was unlike the others, no tears rolled down my cheek for I have written a chapter and turned the page like a brand new dream....

One step at a time.

It was a difficult winter in many ways. Unfortunately that carried over into my summer events. I booked less and worked on the market. Absorbing all that is and trying to make the most of it.

The biggest lie one can tell is to themself...